Not meant to be.

so this week we decided it was time to buy a house. The funds are there so why not??! Well, we inspected houses and found the one we wanted…. 

We organised the building inspection, pest inspection and solicitors only to have the owners decide after we had committed to purchasing and paid to take the house off the market, that they wanted more, we were counter offered.. It turned into an auction…
Devastated does not begin to explain how I felt when I received the phone call explaining that we had lost the property. 

It was perfect for us…
Maybe next time right ? 

Shewontbenamed. 

Is it over?

as you know, I’m married. But Is it over? We are having some behavioural issues with Miss 5 and the school has called a meeting next Friday with her teacher, the welfare officer, myself and my husband…  I know 100% my husband will not be at the meeting… Why? Because it appears, that while yes she is a 5 year old little girl, she has caused us a fair whack of problems. *note I take full responsibility for how she acts and how she is* 

He has distanced himself from her, doesn’t want to deal with her and in his words is “sick of her.”  Talk about crushed. My heart, is broken in a millions pieces.. I have screwed up raising my children.. Side note here, miss 5 is from a previous relationship which went south and long story short he wanted nothing to do with her.

How do I fix this huge mistake? How do I mend this… With my husband not caring anymore about my daughter, I’m just broken… let me tell you though, He was there for her birth, changed her first few nappies, bathed her, took her in as his own. Now this… This nightmare. 

I am currently on the couch with my baby, I managed to transfer him from his cradle into my lounge room without waking him up.. Live taken my medication and now, this… I’m writing a blog, thinking about how I fix this mess.. 

I have a referral to see a paediatrician now the waiting game begins, what are the costs going to be, what will the waiting timeframe be… The doctor on the referral is aimed at, is away till Friday, so Friday is the EARLIEST I will hear back… Until I get an appointment and an assessment done, does my husband and I, speak very little to each other and do I continue sleeping on the couch?

I don’t even know…… 
Shewontbenamed.